It happened again where I was overwhelmed by lack of sleep from the excitement of wanting the days to be just perfect for the boys. I crashed. I had missed my chill pill by two days in need of a new prescription, warning those around me I was out already. My patience level was past thin and my head was suffering the lack of sleep and lack of water intake. The boys needed food before taking their pills and were also feeling the effects of staying up late daily since vacation started.
The house an array of scattered toys, empty boxes, and stacking laundry both to folded and also be cleaned. Decorations everywhere and weekly paper piles addeding up where no one goes through them but me. I had it with the lack of enthusiasm towards efforts of having a better self worth and world around me comiing from only me, but being accused of the opposite by the outside world. What is the choice God is trying to direct me towards. What lesson is being presented? Patience, tolerance, raising up others in standards different from what I thought was acceptable? I find it more difficult to stay in this lesson than the worth of what I am supposed to learn. Lord give me strength to not burn more bridges as I tire from trying to build them without the right tools.
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